1 Corinthians 12-13 If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall. The
temptations in your life are no different from what others experience.
And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than
you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that
you can endure.NLT
It's so easy for me to lose my guard. Everything seems to be going okay, so I give in a little.I'll go in his apartment because I feel like we won't mess up. Shortly after I go in there I realize that I thought I was stronger then I really am, and I fall.
Right now I honestly feel like Kevin and I are the only ones going through this whole waiting thing. But, I know we aren't. There are so many people who have gone through this, so many people that still are. The thing is, no one wants to talk about where we fail.
I love this third part. And God is faithful. That part right there is just so awesome. He is faithful. He's not going to allow the temptation to be anymore then I can handle. He'll show me a way out of it so I can win. Listening to God is another story. I can't count the many freakin' million times I ignored God, the times I didn't want to listen to him. I really gotta start listening...
Well, I decided I'm
still going to keep doing this. After being upset for 24 hours over
this, I decided that this really is to much for Kevin, I'm asking to
much of him. I realized that right now, he's doing all these Bible
things for me. Not to grow closer to God, but he's smart enough to know
if he doesn't keep up, I'll get upset. I'll be honest though, I've only
got upset with the 118 Days Of Waiting thing. I've never got upset
because he hasn't read the Bible in a week, that both books we're
suppose to be reading lay on floor untouched, that the verse of the week
we are suppose to memorize takes him two months. I only got upset
because this was something we were suppose to do together, to help us
with temptation, but he doesn't understand that part and thinks I'll get
upset if he doesn't say caught up.
Needless
to say, he's not doing the 118 Days Of Waiting anymore. As far as he
knows right now I'm not either, but I am. I started this, and I will
finish it with or without him...
Today,
we didn't see each other but a few hours and didn't mess up! Yes, he
started to (I was dumb and laid in bed with him again), but I didn't let us do anything wrong. I mean, I did let him
a little, but not really. Battle wounds, but we still won! One full week winning streak! Day Fifty Nine Won!!!!
61 Days Left!
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